Grief & Vulnerability

This year, was the 20th anniversary of my father’s and mother’s passings and it left me feeling incredibly sad and incredibly vulnerable. I have not felt this level of grief since their passing and it was hard to manage, it was hard to manage then and it was hard to manage 20 years later……….

Grief sits within us, in different parts of our body. For me, the main load of my grief sits right in the middle of my chest, my heart, it sits in there and I can feel its vice on it. For others it sits within their stomachs and for some on their skin. This grief is still so alive within me this year, it could be because I lived through a similar (but not) experience that caused my dad’s passing, it could be because it has been 20 yrs. It could be the combination of the 2 in conjunction with the energies of this year but I know it is all of it………

What I have found is that grief is not only tricky for the one going though it but also for the ones you speak with about it. As a society, we have not been taught how to hold someone in compassion while they navigate their grief; to hold someone in pure unconditional love and compassion; to hold them in their vulnerability and pain. I have found the best way to sit and be with someone who is grieving is simply to hold them in love. That is it. No judgement, no trying to fix the problem for them, for there is no problem besides the absence of love that is felt when a loved one crosses over, this is grief.

So please, be there for your loved ones. Sit in the discomfort of their pain with them, I know this isn’t easy but it really does help one heal and has been one of the things that has helped me through this year and 20 yrs prior.

Grief is such a powerful teacher. It reminds us of the love we shared with another.

From My Heart To Yours

Love Deena xXx

Morning Musings - Bend The Air

Morning Musings On This Beautiful Day

Bend The Air

I read a caption incorrectly but maybe it was perfect! To me is said “Bend The Air” I actually cannot even tell you what the real caption was but it got me thinking, ‘how do we bend the air and can we even do such a thing?’ I sat and closed my eyes breathing in deeply and feeling the air around me, expanding my field and contracting it and seeing how the air feels around me and then I realised ‘oh, we do this all the time without even realising’. We are constantly bending the air with our mood and emotions and with our state of being.

If you think of it when irritated our energy gets spiky! When happy and secure and content it is smooth; when feeling a little out of sorts, it can actually feel a bit wobbly or rippley; creating even more of a bending effect than us simply being in good state of mind or being (to reference our energetic field when good is usually quite smooth and almost egg shaped, it radiates out around) So really in any given state of being, from content and placid to having big emotions or even being sick our smooth energetic field becomes a little distorted and “bends the air” in a different way and this “bending of the air” can allow us to know when someone is entering the space and we can (if we are in tune) tell what sort of mood or health or state of being the person who is entering the space is in before they even do so. Pretty cool hey.

And I know we all know this on some level but I had never thought of it as bending the air and I really love that terminology in these terms and think I’ll be using it from now on. There is so much more to say on this topic as my mind is whirling with ideas and inner knowings and downloads but for now we leave his here.

So I guess the only answer left to ask is “how do you wish to bend the air today?”

Sending you all lots of love

Deena xXx

Balance.......Do You Really Understand Its Nature?

As I have been looker deeper and deeper into the Hummingbird, I had some really clear insights on Balance…….

The Hummingbird as we know is so incredibly beautiful but did you know that she beats her wings at a rate of 80 beats per second - YES, per second!!! That is incredibly fast!! What's even more fascinating is the unique figure-8 sequence in which they move their wings! In flight, they basically form an infinity symbol with their wings. This distinctive motion enables the hummingbird to move forwards, backwards, and to also maintain a hovering position.

Hummingbirds are busy little birds and their hearts beat at over 1,263 beats per minute. At night however, when the temperature drops, they enter a state of torpor, allowing them to rest and educe their heart rate to as low as 50 beats a minute to conserve energy. Hummingbirds are simply amazing!!!

Ok so let’s get back to the info I shared about their figure-8 wing movement, particularly in relation to the state of hovering. So this gave me a deeper understanding about “BALANCE”. Ok so hear me out. We are always seeking balance within ourself, yes? But how do we actually perceive balance? Do we think of it as a static state of being? Almost as if it were a pause or breath between 2 extremes? Do we think of it as a state where we are detached from both and are therefore neither one nor the other? Or do we think of BALANCE as a dynamic space between two energetic polarities?

The Hummingbird's continuous, quick motion challenges these conventional notions of balance. Although she appears motionless and suspended in air, achieving perfect stillness, the hummingbird is, in fact, in constant, rapid motion. This realisation suggests that true balance requires actively receiving and responding to stimuli simultaneously so that equilibrium is maintained while navigating the dynamic currents of everyday life. Hummingbird therefore shows us that achieving balance is not synonymous with stagnation but rather is a dynamic force.

Ahh, thank you hummingbird for showing us how to find balance amid motion and remain agile in the face of life's ever-changing landscape.

How do you find balance in your daily life? is it through meditation? Through walks in nature? Through journalling? Playing with you children or fur babies? However you do, I am sure you would find that there is a dynamic force that is running through you when you do.

From My Heart to Yours,

Deena xXx

Hummingbird

This has been a long time coming. From the time I was a young child, hummingbirds have always fascinated me. I spoke to them and sent messages to friends and loved ones through them. I remember asking that all who see a hummingbird be blessed with joy and love. Hummingbirds have played a very important part in my life and still does today. She was my first tattoo and sits on my wrist, reminding me of her magic but also of my own.

And with this, it is time for me to introduce you to my new logo! I am so excited for this change and have sat with this beauty for a while AND she is ready to be revealed. She sits in alignment with my soul frequency and with the soul frequency of Spirit Weaver. 

And here she is. I have introduced the hummingbird into my logo. The hummingbird is one of my totem animals and represents a wisdom and beauty that is untouched. The hummingbird is often seen as a symbol of joy, freedom, perseverance, creativity, love and healing. Hummingbird encourages us to live in the moment, to enjoy the sweetness of life and also to be open to change. She encourages us to follow our hearts and pursue our dreams with light and optimism. One of hummingbirds greatest gifts is within its ability to fly in all directions and to actually look like she is hovering in one spot. This represents both flexibility and freedom. It represents joining, the past, present and future all in the one now, moment.

Ahh so this explains a bit about why the  hummingbird has been introduced as a totem animal in my business, but there is also more. For me, the hummingbird with its ability to fly in all directions, accompanies me on soul retrieves and soul journeying (past life) sessions, she helps me to ascertain all aspects of a past life situation while helping to keep me anchored to the now moment, thereby assisting in the healing. 

Another one of her extra special abilities is the ability to memorise thousands of flowers but to only go back to those that truly nourish her. In doing so she helps us to look at our soul blueprint and template and helps us to go though the layers and the lifetimes, remembering those aspects of self , those beliefs, talents and gifts that have helped us to obtain the sweetness of a life and therefore, helps us to draw from that wisdom and utilise it in this lifetime. She therefore, illuminates the path where our soul nectar is so that we can follow this journey with an absolute knowing that this is the one for us. 

So join me in welcoming hummingbird and her magic. I have always worked with hummingbird, she is now taking more of a centre stage as we reveal and unveil more and more of our magic as we continue this journey together. 

Breathe

Breathe 

The world as we have known it is changing minute by minute, hour by hour. We are in times that have never been seen before which can leave some of us feeling overwhelmed, confused, sad, teary and fearful. When you start to feel overwhelmed by news, social media, family, friends, people in the shops etc; Place your hand on your heart and breathe from this space 

Breathe and remember that we are all in this together 

Breathe and remember that we are one 

Do what is right for you and your family but be mindful of the whole 

This gorgeous healing grid has been created to help strengthen our lungs and respiratory system and to help us stay true to ourselves and our hearts. This is so important in these times to be true to ourselves. True to our Divine Loving nature.

Sending You So Much Love

Deena xXx

Light Language

You have probably heard the term Light Language before and have wondered what it is all about. Well here is a little info I put together on it:

Light Language is a multi dimensional language that I believe is understood by all on a soul level. It speaks directly to your heart, you soul and to your DNA.

Light Language can be used for amazing initiations clearings, activations, alignments, healings and so much more. It can do this as it is a multi-layered stream of information. It is not limited to linear time and may have several origins eg angelic, galactic, elemental etc

The frequency of Light Language bypasses all other systems or beliefs and is absorbed into the energy field in its original format. It's pretty cool stuff!

Light Language mostly cannot be translated word for word as it is a deeply layered alchemical transmission of information. This is a language you truly do feel and translate with your heart.

I have been channelling Light Language since the age of 15. It is such an intrinsic part of who I am. When I first asked about the language, I was told by Mother Mary that 'When in prayer and you can no longer find the human words to match your vibration (because your vibration has transcended this physical world) then this language will be gifted to you. It is the language of the angels.' but as mentioned above, there are many different languages that can be channelled in Light Language.

For myself personally, I use Light Language in times of absolute joy, in times of uncontrollable sadness, in grief, for my healing and for everyday use.

Following is a link to a Light Language transmission I channelled on 6 March 2020 so that you can hear what this can potentially sound like.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=bUu4AWGM0zU

If you have any queries about Light Language or you would like a personal song channelled for you, contact me here or you can read some more information about it here.

Sending You So Much Love

Deena xXx

P.S. This Light Code pictured below, is one that I created that depicts to me the energy of a channelled Light Language transmission.

The Start of a New Year and New Decade!

Here it is! The start of 2020

As we cross this threshold into 2020 take the time to release, to give gratitude for all of the lessons, people, experiences, moments, life that you have lived this last year and decade and create a beautiful space within to allow all of your dreams for 2020 and beyond to settle into.

What are you ready to let go of my loves? What have you been holding onto that is no longer in alignment with you? Are you ready to release it? What beliefs, stories (oh the stories we tell ourselves) are you willing to release?

What does your heart whisper to you? What are you wanting to create for yourself and your life? Take the time to sit in your heart and really think about this. You might not have concrete ideas but you may have definite feelings you wish to create for yourself in this next decade, focus on these feelings, hold them in your heart and allow them the space and magic to come alive.

Sending You All So Much Love
From My Heart to Yours
Deena xXx

Grid for helping you to cross this threshold into this new dimension and manifest your heart’s desires with ease and grace 🙏🏼

♥️ You are Fabulous Just the Way You Are ♥️

My dear, you are fabulous just the way you are ♥️

When others say you are too much, you know what I mean. I feel we have all been told this at one time or another. Too loud. Too much. We laugh too much. Our spirit is too upbeat. We are too quiet. Your energy is too high! Too sensitive. Too caring etc etc etc

Oh my lord I am so over this. I am so over people telling others that they are too much because they cannot handle their light and their soul because of their insecurities (yes this is usually why this happens in the first place) I am so tired of people feeling they have a right to even speak these words to another being. How dare we enforce our opinions on others.

We must allow people the space to breathe and be who they are. So that they can learn to be true expression of themselves and of their hearts and souls. We must allow the space for people to meet who they are and if we cannot hold the space for them to do this, we have a choice to walk away in love ♥️ Always in love ♥️ We however, do not have the right to try to make someone small or less than or make them feel they have to change themselves to appease our needs. This is not love.

♥️ Love is the vibration that heals ♥️

When we approach others in love, in this vibration, we all heal and we all learn to see the love and light in each other. We begin to see the love in each other ♥️ we learn that this is our core vibration ♥️ we become compassionate ♥️ and when we do this, those “too muches” become a wonderful thing to behold ♥️

Holding You All in Love ♥️
You are Beautiful and a Divine expression of Love ♥️
From My Heart to Yours
Deena xXx

Life Flows in Cycles

Life flows in cycles 💫
Seasons change 💫
Friends may change 💫
At times it feels as though you are on top of the world and at other times you might feel as though you are clawing your way back to the surface for air 💫
People might misunderstand you and likewise you might misunderstand the intentions or words of others 💫
Life flows in cycles; How we hold ourselves through every moment is key 💫
Stay in the present 💫
Hand on heart, take a deep breath, centre yourself. Be present with your emotions, your feelings, yourself and with others 💫
Ask questions, apologise, ask for help, cry, laugh, rejoice, take a gosh darn nap, be compassionate with yourself and others, honour yourself 💫
Hold yourself in congruence with your heart, hold yourself in integrity and if you mess up or fall, pick yourself up, dust yourself off, make amends, forgive yourself and others, have compassion for yourself and others 💫
Accept where we all are at every moment and allow life to flow through you with creative abandon 💫
Be your own cheerleader and champion. Be the cheerleader and champion for others 💫
And most of all Live, Love, find Peace when you can and cultivate Joy in your life (it is a choice after all) 💫

From My Heart to Yours
So Much Love & Deepest Blessings 
Deena xXx

Help My Crystal Broke...............

One of the saddest things I have ever seen (in terms of crystal ownership) 🙁 this gorgeous Aqua Aura, broke into 4 when I took it out of its box. In a twist of fate, however, she has found her home with a dear soul who couldn't bare to separate them from each other 💙

What do you do when your crystals break? Do you hold onto them or do you gift them back to the earth? Do you try to mend them and make them whole again? and what does it mean when your crystal breaks or shatters?

For me, it depends on what is happening at the time when my crystal breaks. If I have been working steadily with a crystal and then it breaks, in whichever way eg I drop it; it falls to the floor when moving something else; it shatters while meditating with it etc it means that I have finished my work with that crystal. If this is the case, I will take the pieces of the crystals, give thanks to it for the lessons and healing and then return them back to the Earth.

Sometimes, when you drop a crystal it might break into two pieces, when this happens, I cleanse the pieces and ask the crystal what are the next steps for it. It could be that one piece is to go to a friend and I keep the other piece; that both pieces need to be passed on; that I use both pieces as two separate crystals now or that it is to be returned to the Earth as well. Another thing I like to do with broken crystal pieces is place them in my potted plants 💚

Crystals can also have natural flaws in them which can make them susceptible to breaking when heat or cold is applied to them. Let's have a look at this beautiful Aqua Aura pictured below. Aqua Aura is formed by Clear Quartz undergoing a process whereby it is bonded with Gold, specifically, the crystals are heated, and fine vaporised gold is bonded to its surface. It's a pretty cool process but as you can appreciate, if a crystal has a natural flaw (think of it like a fault line) to begin with, simply undergoing the process to transform the Clear Quartz to Aqua Aura could exasperate this issue and weaken the crystal further causing it to break.

It can be quite disheartening and sad when your crystals break and sometimes it can mean that the crystal has completed its work with you and other times it is simply one of those things that happens.

Whichever it is, my suggestion would be for you to sit with your crystal, cleanse it, honour it for all it has done for you and ask it how it would like to move forward from this point on. You might hear a voice, get a feeling or a knowing of what to do. Follow that voice, follow the guidance received and honour the crystal being for gifting us with its presence, with its healing, with its wisdom and love.

From My Heart to Yours

Deena xXx

Emerging in Joy

I have mentioned it before, every year I choose a word or theme for myself. I am usually given these words in moments where I am out in nature or in the shower. They are moments, when I am usually not consciously thinking about what my theme or word for the year could be but rather in the moment when I am open to receiving it.

This year, my word is Emerge which I LOVE. I have however been open to this word changing or rather evolving throughout the year as well. To me this one word never felt complete but I embraced it and am embracing it as my theme for the year.

Today, while speaking with a beautiful friend I realised that it has evolved from Emerge to “EMERGING IN JOY” I realised then, when she asked me what are my plans for this year and my response was to be joyful in all I do. I am Emerging in Joy and it feels so darn beautiful and good and JOYful!

So my loves, be open to changes, be open to those words and themes that you have chosen for yourself for this year to change. We are incredibly, epically exciting times and you might find that within a couple of months, you have learnt the lessons you were meant to learn, you might find that you need something a little more added to your word or theme, a sub-theme maybe……you might even find that with your main theme, you have little sub-themes per month.

Be open, be curious, keep checking in with yourself and with your word/theme and allow changes to occur as need be and as you evolve and grow.

So Much Love to You

Deena xXx

Fall in Love With Being the Best Version of Yourself

♥️♥️♥️

“Fall in love with the process of becoming the very best version of yourself”

— Shruti Gaja

I love this quote so much because it is so true. Even if it is painful, even if it feels as though you might not make it......when we break through those barriers, self limiting beliefs and own our worth and magnificence and step into our divinity, little by little it makes everything worthwhile ♥️

I like to think of healing like a big balloon. While going through the process the balloon expands and stretches just as how we expand and stretch to our limit and then there is this moment of realisation, healing and wholeness and the balloon is popped, the air released and you guessed it, all of the tension is released. It’s that moment where you exhale into the healing ♥️ 

It is the sweet release in the healing, the knowing and the ultimate wholeness ♥️ and every time you go through a healing you step into the best version of yourself ♥️ 

Of course this doesn’t only happen in healings, we have EVERY DAY and EVERY MOMENT to be THE VERY BEST VERSION of ourselves but when you break through a big belief or limitation that has been holding you back for so long you do feel this sense of relief, compassion and pure love for yourself and your journey ♥️

Much Love to You All
Deena xXx

New Year, New Word, New Theme.....maybe?

Happy New Year!

I am not the type of person to make resolutions, I never have been, I tried a couple of times but I always ‘failed’ pretty soon after they were made and then I felt like crap so I gave up on them pretty quickly and instead just focussed on what type of person I wanted to be for the year, kind, generous, loving etc you get the idea.

This has evolved into me choosing a word that reflects the main lesson or idea of how I want to live my life for the year ahead. My word last year was TRUST and the Universe provided me with many ways to build trust within myself and with others and with the Universe itself. It was a remarkable year of learning and tending to my wounds and loving them and myself while I healed.

This year my word is EMERGE and I am truly excited to see what magic the year ahead holds.

You might be wondering how I came about my word for the year. It’s pretty easy and anyone can do it. I thought about 2018 and the overall feeling I had throughout the year and the lessons I learnt. I thought about what worked for me and what didn’t work and I sat with all of those feelings for a while, the good, the bad, the ugly, the joyous, the magical, the loving feelings…..I sat with them all and allowed myself to feel them all and give gratitude to them and when I felt complete with this stage, I allowed myself to imagine how I want to feel in 2019, all the things I want to accomplish for this year, in my personal life, my business life, my financial life, my family life; in every aspect of my life and as I was dreaming up this life for me I was shown how in 2018 I was in a cocoon, going through a metamorphosis of sorts, a healing and the more I dreamed up what I wanted my life to be like, the more I could feel myself coming out of this cocoon, emerging and spreading my wings. Funnily though, the word came to me days later as I only just saw this vision while in meditation.

If you have not done so as yet or have never thought of finding a word/theme for your year ahead I would encourage you to try it out. Please know there are no hard rules on this, you can have a phrase, you can have more than one word even! It is entirely up to you. You might even have chosen a theme or word for last year and you feel you have not completed it. It just feels incomplete…….guess what? You can have that word again as your word for this year! Listen to Your SOUL, it will let you know what it is you are needing.

So here are my simple steps:

1. find some quiet time to yourself and centre yourself

2. look back on 2018 and take stock of all that occurred in it. The good , the bad, the incredible, the ugly and the magical and find their lessons. You may want to write this all down.

3. give thanks to 2018 for those lessons - they helped you on your way

4. think about how you want to feel in 2019

5. start to imagine and dream your life in 2019

6. allow your word or theme to come through. Listen to YOUR SOUL

7. write it down! What does this word mean to you?

8. you can create a vision board with this word in the centre or on the top

9. live your life to the fullest. Throughout the year come back to this word, ask yourself if your actions are contributing towards it

10. Create Magic!

I hope this has helped and that you can find your perfect word/theme/phrase for the year.

What does 'Being in Service' Mean

Being in Service. I hear alot of people talk about this but what does this actually mean. What does it truly mean to be in service to others?

According to the Dictionary service means

1. the action of helping or doing work for someone.

2. a system supplying a public need such as transport, communications, or utilities such as electricity and water.

3. perform routine maintenance or repair work on (a vehicle or machine).

So let’s have a look at this first meaning as what I want to discuss here are how you and I can be of service to others. This is not a post about those beautiful souls who are already in service roles such as nurses or plumbers.

The action of helping or doing work for someone ~ this is pretty self explanatory and really makes you think. Most people think of service work as work that you are getting paid to do or maybe even work that you must do against your will but in this meaning, service is the act of helping someone out as well eg the act of cooking a meal for a friend who is going through trauma or grief or illness.

In this simple example, service means that you are there for your friend, providing nourishment for them at a time when they either physically or emotionally cannot provide for themselves. This is an act of service to that soul that we do so often without any thought but what if it was for a person who was wealthy and could afford to hire a chef or personal carer to take care of them if they fall on hard times? Do we then go and offer our services to them too? or do we see service as something that should only be gifted to ‘the everyday man’ or to those more in need than ourselves. I am curious to see what people think of the word service. Is it something that some pious saint does? or is it something that is as simple as holding a friend as they cry, or cleaning their house for them when they cannot, or holding the hair back for a friend who has had too much to drink (yes even this is an act of service)

What I am trying to highlight is that we so often do not recognise our actions as those as service. We so often see ourselves as not selfless beings and not beings of service when really, from day to day, we are constantly in service to each other. This my dear friends this is the meaning of humanity, brotherly love, compassion.

I’d like you to now take a moment and see how you have been of service to others throughout your life and how others have been of service to you, with this new awareness in mind. Think about how you felt both being of service to someone and receiving as well. Did it make you feel good? Did it make your heart smile or feel warm inside?

I would also like you to think of some ways that you can be more of service to others. If we as a society, stopped for a moment and did one act of service to another being everyday, this world will be so much more incredible and so much more love-filled than it already is.

From My Heart to Yours

Deena xXx

Time To Shine

I sat at my computer to update some information on my site and thought to myself, I wonder if I have a blog in me and I have to admit that I really wasn't sure I did but as soon as I thought, I'm not sure I was given was the title......Time To Shine. So here it is.....

What does this meant to me, Time to Shine? Is it time for me to shine? Time for you to shine? Time for us all to shine? When I feel into it, it is all of them! It is simply time for us to stop hiding in the shadows and to open up our heart and our lives to the immense possibilities that lie before us. I do offer a word of caution here though as not all possibilities/opportunities are equal and therefore not all should be taken up as some will be like a test to see exactly where your resolve, trust and faith lie and others will be so sweet and so beautiful that you know from the instant it is uttered to you that you are in 100%  

So how do you know if this possibility that has been presented to you is going to allow you to shine your light in the way that feels aligned and authentic to you? You need to stop and be in the silence and allow your heart to speak to you. Allow it to send you the messages that are authentic to you. Listening to and following your heart will ALWAYS ALWAYS ALWAYS allow you to SHINE!!

Photo by Brigitte Tohm from Pexels

Here's a little exercise on how I listen to my heart, even when I am feeling overwhelmed. First of all I talk it out or write it out. I am one of those people who needs to speak or write out all of my feelings on the subject, to let all the "noise" out so that I can sit in silence and connect in with my heart. This doesn't mean that I cannot connect in before I clear the noise but I have found that this is the best way for me to be as clear as possible, as quiet as possible which makes the connection with my heart as loud as possible. When there are still emotions running around, I can only hear little whispers, when I am quiet and still I can hear the roar of my heart, its needs, desires and direction. 

To Connect In With Your Heart

1. place your hand on your heart and take a few deep, relaxing and cleansing breaths
2. draw your attention to your heart and feel the love you have for it building
3. meet your heart, that Divine place within
4. ask the question you need clarification on eg "Divine Heart of mine, is this opportunity <<Insert opportunity>>> right for me in this moment? Will this opportunity allow my heart to soar and my light to shine? Will it keep me on my path?"
5. Wait for the answer, it may come as a feeling, as a thought, as a sound, a scent, an animal messenger or you might just know automatically what it is
6. Once you have received your message always give thanks and send love

I know this might sound a little odd, connecting in with your own heart in this way but this is your Sacred Heart you are connecting into, your Anahata and as such, you therefore need to honour it as the sacred being it is. 

From My Heart to Yours

Deena xXx